my soliloquy

hi frns .... the first 19 years of my life have raised many doubts in me .....

after i had gone through infancy , childhood , adolescence & teenage ..... mixed with my schooling & life at college , i found myself in an unstable state with many thoughts & many more doubts roaming inside my cranium .

yep .... i am revealing a few of them here .... so that i can get some of my doubts solved [by u].
Please clarify me if u can ....

1] We have changed a lot between our childhood & the present day . Now we are YOUTH .., we say . Very often we do not hear & obey our elders' words . Once upon a time , they understood what our thoughts were when we had not uttered our first words & now we say ... U CAN'T UNDERSTAND ... just think of it once ... are we right ?

2] SCHOOLING is an excellent period in the life of everyone though it contains many monday morning blues & weekend pinks . We miss it so much once we come out & join in some college . The life at the latter has a lot of variation with the one at school . Am i correct ..?

3] In the intermediate course , as we all know there is hardly any time to enjoy as the days progress . The milling , crushing & crashing process ends with an entrance examination . Is there any student who enjoyed this whole period to optimum levels ?

4] The professional college is the actual place where we start to learn "how to live". Life at this stage experiences many angles & gives us a reserve knowledge .... the EXPERIENCE . This will be useful in our future . Everything is precious here .... friends , relationships within our family & with our contemporaries , tutors & mentors . We can almost read people around us . Anyone disagrees with this ...?

5] Almost everyone of us stay longer with our friends than with our family members at this stage . So there is no doubt ... our pals know us better than our parents & others do . Often , our habits change & we acquire new ones . But we dont try to reveal those before the elders at our house .

6] We haven't crossed the stage of living in a world of imagination yet , did we ? OK ... here are some words for the lads ... "At this stage , the psyche of girls is more stable than ours . They think in a better way in maintenance of relationships with the opposite sex than we do . Even at this stage , i saw guys who couldn't differentiate between love & attraction . So , its better for us , if we do not commit to any ... now. Please wait for 3to4 years to turn . Your future is always in your hands ."

7] I saw many boys & girls around me . I feel pity for the behaviours of some of them . I saw some individuals[ especially girls ] becoming victims of vanity . I didn't understand the prime reason for this . They are still learning ... isn't it ? They dont talk to others in a normal way & there are some who doesn't talk with certain people at all . Very often they form groups . Getting a seat in some prestigious institute is not enough to live the remaining part of your lives . Then why did you let the vanity to take you under its control.....
There are many others who remain unaltered .... both boys & girls . I am sure they will never have a fall .



** there are many other thoughts & doubts ... we shall discuss when the time permits