A day marks its beginning
as the sun leaves the horizon.
A breath is commencing,
when a conception finds its conclusion, a child is born.
Rising higher and higher, the warm and charming sun,
as if he is destined to be at that place, unknown.
Boastful at his simplest doings, clean at soul the child is,
trying to be a gallant, to be a stunner, on his own.
Bellicose , brave and intrepid
is the youth, manipulated by the cupid,
willing to do anything, unstoppable
and unbearable, the midday sun, the like .
The life turns, thoughts dominate belligerence
and he counts on the experience ,
the case of an adult; smart and cool
like the evening sun heading the other side.
Thence is the twilight of the career,
the mysterious history's rear.
The old breathes its last ,
the twilit dusk vanishes fast..
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
the face on the wall
In holidays , our family makes regular outings . My father always wishes to plan a tour to some sacred place . In a summer break , we had planned to visit Shiridi . We started at Hyedrabad after staying there a couple of days at our relatives' house . We catched the tourism bus in the evening . Only after crossing the busy city roads , we could enjoy the journey .
We reached our destination early in the morning & got a room registered in the tourism hotel . Everyone of us started to groom ourselves as the darshan time is coming closer . There was a hospital beside the hotel in which we were staying . I saw a child whose cot lies parallel to one of the windows of our room . He looked healthy but was deprived of the natural glow in his face . 'Perhaps , he has some chronic disease which is progressing with time' , i thought . I didn't observe him much in my first time as there was no time & we were in a hurry . We roamed here & there after our darshan & reached our room in the night .
We were busy in starting to nearby places on the next 2 days . We were staying at room only at night & in the mornings . It was in the third morning , i was astonished by my strange observation . I saw the face on the wall losing its margins . And the condition of the child had worsened . He neither was able to get up from his bed nor was eating the food . I was under the shower [in the first morning] when i had observed a patch on one of the walls of the bathroom beside the ventilator . It took the form of a human face & was very clear as if it was an artificial work . Now, it was fading off & had lost its margins .
In the next two days , the patch was increasingly disappearing . I saw the child suffering very much . On that night , i tried very much to stop my tears when the child was struggling in the ICU & the parents , almost hopeless , were unable to express their grief . Before my bed , i tried to increase the contrast of the face with water , with a meaningless hope . I forced myself to bed as we were departing from that place early in the next morning . I didn't open that window this time . Infact , i am not bold enough to do that , after failing to find the patch which had vanished away from the wall .
I couldn't enjoy my return journey . When ever i sleep , the face was disturbing me again & again throughout our journey . This had haunted me for a week . 'Alas ..! its fate ', i thought . Whereafter , when i came across such a wall with a patch , it reminded me "the face on the wall".
We reached our destination early in the morning & got a room registered in the tourism hotel . Everyone of us started to groom ourselves as the darshan time is coming closer . There was a hospital beside the hotel in which we were staying . I saw a child whose cot lies parallel to one of the windows of our room . He looked healthy but was deprived of the natural glow in his face . 'Perhaps , he has some chronic disease which is progressing with time' , i thought . I didn't observe him much in my first time as there was no time & we were in a hurry . We roamed here & there after our darshan & reached our room in the night .
We were busy in starting to nearby places on the next 2 days . We were staying at room only at night & in the mornings . It was in the third morning , i was astonished by my strange observation . I saw the face on the wall losing its margins . And the condition of the child had worsened . He neither was able to get up from his bed nor was eating the food . I was under the shower [in the first morning] when i had observed a patch on one of the walls of the bathroom beside the ventilator . It took the form of a human face & was very clear as if it was an artificial work . Now, it was fading off & had lost its margins .
In the next two days , the patch was increasingly disappearing . I saw the child suffering very much . On that night , i tried very much to stop my tears when the child was struggling in the ICU & the parents , almost hopeless , were unable to express their grief . Before my bed , i tried to increase the contrast of the face with water , with a meaningless hope . I forced myself to bed as we were departing from that place early in the next morning . I didn't open that window this time . Infact , i am not bold enough to do that , after failing to find the patch which had vanished away from the wall .
I couldn't enjoy my return journey . When ever i sleep , the face was disturbing me again & again throughout our journey . This had haunted me for a week . 'Alas ..! its fate ', i thought . Whereafter , when i came across such a wall with a patch , it reminded me "the face on the wall".
my soliloquy
hi frns .... the first 19 years of my life have raised many doubts in me .....
after i had gone through infancy , childhood , adolescence & teenage ..... mixed with my schooling & life at college , i found myself in an unstable state with many thoughts & many more doubts roaming inside my cranium .
yep .... i am revealing a few of them here .... so that i can get some of my doubts solved [by u].
Please clarify me if u can ....
1] We have changed a lot between our childhood & the present day . Now we are YOUTH .., we say . Very often we do not hear & obey our elders' words . Once upon a time , they understood what our thoughts were when we had not uttered our first words & now we say ... U CAN'T UNDERSTAND ... just think of it once ... are we right ?
2] SCHOOLING is an excellent period in the life of everyone though it contains many monday morning blues & weekend pinks . We miss it so much once we come out & join in some college . The life at the latter has a lot of variation with the one at school . Am i correct ..?
3] In the intermediate course , as we all know there is hardly any time to enjoy as the days progress . The milling , crushing & crashing process ends with an entrance examination . Is there any student who enjoyed this whole period to optimum levels ?
4] The professional college is the actual place where we start to learn "how to live". Life at this stage experiences many angles & gives us a reserve knowledge .... the EXPERIENCE . This will be useful in our future . Everything is precious here .... friends , relationships within our family & with our contemporaries , tutors & mentors . We can almost read people around us . Anyone disagrees with this ...?
5] Almost everyone of us stay longer with our friends than with our family members at this stage . So there is no doubt ... our pals know us better than our parents & others do . Often , our habits change & we acquire new ones . But we dont try to reveal those before the elders at our house .
6] We haven't crossed the stage of living in a world of imagination yet , did we ? OK ... here are some words for the lads ... "At this stage , the psyche of girls is more stable than ours . They think in a better way in maintenance of relationships with the opposite sex than we do . Even at this stage , i saw guys who couldn't differentiate between love & attraction . So , its better for us , if we do not commit to any ... now. Please wait for 3to4 years to turn . Your future is always in your hands ."
7] I saw many boys & girls around me . I feel pity for the behaviours of some of them . I saw some individuals[ especially girls ] becoming victims of vanity . I didn't understand the prime reason for this . They are still learning ... isn't it ? They dont talk to others in a normal way & there are some who doesn't talk with certain people at all . Very often they form groups . Getting a seat in some prestigious institute is not enough to live the remaining part of your lives . Then why did you let the vanity to take you under its control.....
There are many others who remain unaltered .... both boys & girls . I am sure they will never have a fall .
** there are many other thoughts & doubts ... we shall discuss when the time permits
after i had gone through infancy , childhood , adolescence & teenage ..... mixed with my schooling & life at college , i found myself in an unstable state with many thoughts & many more doubts roaming inside my cranium .
yep .... i am revealing a few of them here .... so that i can get some of my doubts solved [by u].
Please clarify me if u can ....
1] We have changed a lot between our childhood & the present day . Now we are YOUTH .., we say . Very often we do not hear & obey our elders' words . Once upon a time , they understood what our thoughts were when we had not uttered our first words & now we say ... U CAN'T UNDERSTAND ... just think of it once ... are we right ?
2] SCHOOLING is an excellent period in the life of everyone though it contains many monday morning blues & weekend pinks . We miss it so much once we come out & join in some college . The life at the latter has a lot of variation with the one at school . Am i correct ..?
3] In the intermediate course , as we all know there is hardly any time to enjoy as the days progress . The milling , crushing & crashing process ends with an entrance examination . Is there any student who enjoyed this whole period to optimum levels ?
4] The professional college is the actual place where we start to learn "how to live". Life at this stage experiences many angles & gives us a reserve knowledge .... the EXPERIENCE . This will be useful in our future . Everything is precious here .... friends , relationships within our family & with our contemporaries , tutors & mentors . We can almost read people around us . Anyone disagrees with this ...?
5] Almost everyone of us stay longer with our friends than with our family members at this stage . So there is no doubt ... our pals know us better than our parents & others do . Often , our habits change & we acquire new ones . But we dont try to reveal those before the elders at our house .
6] We haven't crossed the stage of living in a world of imagination yet , did we ? OK ... here are some words for the lads ... "At this stage , the psyche of girls is more stable than ours . They think in a better way in maintenance of relationships with the opposite sex than we do . Even at this stage , i saw guys who couldn't differentiate between love & attraction . So , its better for us , if we do not commit to any ... now. Please wait for 3to4 years to turn . Your future is always in your hands ."
7] I saw many boys & girls around me . I feel pity for the behaviours of some of them . I saw some individuals[ especially girls ] becoming victims of vanity . I didn't understand the prime reason for this . They are still learning ... isn't it ? They dont talk to others in a normal way & there are some who doesn't talk with certain people at all . Very often they form groups . Getting a seat in some prestigious institute is not enough to live the remaining part of your lives . Then why did you let the vanity to take you under its control.....
There are many others who remain unaltered .... both boys & girls . I am sure they will never have a fall .
** there are many other thoughts & doubts ... we shall discuss when the time permits
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